This great place pictured above is what I have determined as the exact replica of Hell. It is Intermountain Medical Center in Murray, Utah. Don't get me wrong. It is a remarkable facility and I am sure they do some amazing things there, but it has become the sliver in my family's lives that I cannot dig out.
Some of you may not know, but Jill suffers with chronic kidney stones. When I say chronic, I mean she passes one about every 2 months. Sometimes these stones get so large that they cannot pass by themselves and they need to be surgically removed or blasted. Below you will find a picture of 3 kidney stones.
This has been a regular occurrence at the James home for the past 8 or so years. In fact we can plan on a visit to the ER about every 3 months. Today was not an exception. These visits come with much turmoil in our home. Jill and I always fight about it and it makes matters worse. The ER never does anything for Jill in these visits, so I argue that they are a waste of time and money. It frustrates me because what can they really do, but try to make her comfortable. Lately not even that has been happening. Jill's last visit to IMC they exposed her to numerous diseases' and now along with the pain she has anxiety about the trip. I do not not know what to do. I just do not know how much more we can take, Jill especially. I know that on this earth we are tested, but it seems as though we have had enough. I just wish there was an easier way. Jill is doing fine, in fact we have it down to a science. I usually drop Jill off, she goes in and then calls me when they are pulling the IV so I can go back and get her. I should be sitting by her side, but I can't sit and do nothing. I find it easier to deal with the stress working or doing laundry. Please remember us in your prayers. We need something to change. I just wish I could take it away.
I know that I am part of the problem, and I wish I could change my attitude toward the whole ordeal. I need to.
7 comments:
I had no idea that she had them so often. Poor Jill. That is horrible. Let me know what I can do. We love your family and will keep you all in our prayers.
Is there some kind of specialist she could see for pro-active measures?
I'll keep you in my prayers too. Let me know if you ever need a meal or anything else!
Of course we will pray for you Greg. I've always told Jill that I don't know HOW she does it! I do not handle physical pain well and she has been in pain from the time we met your family. She is amazing with the way that she gets up everyday and goes to work...I don't know that I would be that strong! I hope that things will get better for your family, you deserve it!!
P.S. I don't know how you do it either, it is hard to watch your spouse going through hardship and it can be hard for the entire family when things aren't running smoothly because of physical challenges...sorry that you guys are having a difficult time.
The thought comes to my mind... that the Lord does not give us something that we can not endure, but why have you been given so much to endure. How much more can you take you must be the strongest family I know, I am very proud of you, Greg. Love you guys
I am so sorry Jill has to endure this (as well as the family too). I know that kidney stones are extremly painful! We'll keep you in our prayers!
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