Depression

The last few weeks I have been on the down side. Jill suffers from depression in the winter time when it gets dark early and the skies seem very grey. I think I get it when things stay stuck the same day in and day out. The end of summer is that time. Baseball finishes up and there is that dead time before school starts. The last few weeks have been tough. It does not help that my office has been ripped out from under me and things at work are a total caos. Financially it has been tough, and with Jill's health issues we are fighting through. I find myself wondering when it will turn around. When will things change? Can I ever expect to be happy?
Jill reads a feminist mormon blog once in a while that had an interesting post the other day. A lady posted a "why me" blog. She pays her tithing and does the whole routine, church, activities, etc. She wondered when she would ever feel like life gave back to her. The bills are piling up etc. I thought alot about that. Life is too short to feel sorry for myself.
I "hit a pedestrian" this week and boy was I mad. West Valley Police had a sting set up on 3900 S with a cross walk. I almost got hit from behind trying to stop at it and still got a ticket. BUT, who cares I have a good life. I am relatively a good person and have a good family. I have more blessings than I can count. Just like that song says "Count your many belssings name them one by one".
I have a great wife. She may not be homemaker of the year and I do lots of chores around the house, but I love her. Beisdes shouldn't I be doing my part at home. Jill still excites me and I look forward to the good days she has. Jill is a very smart girl and I am glad I got her.
Chris is the son I always wanted. Last night we went to a bees game together. I think he knows more about baseball than most adults. He is a good looking kid and will some day grow into a giant. I worry about him starting junior high, but I know the Lord will help protect him from evil.
Kate is so gorgeous, I worry about someone taking her from me. I know that she is growing into a young women and am glad she is getting the values she needs to help her.
Kolbie has the personality that I lack. She has that flare for the dramatic. She keeps us laughing constantly.
I have a great job and work with great people. I have a home to live in and food to eat.
I am not trying to boast. Just trying to count, I may be a little down in the dumps sometimes, but I know that it will turn around. For sometime I was very disappointed about being in the primary, but lately I have found a niche. Those boys need teachers like Jeremy and I. I think we are having fun with it and reaching out to some boys that will be future leaders. Over time my spirits will perk up. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel.
--- Greg

This is my fav ride at lagoon!

Saturday is a special day a day to.....

Jill's mom and I have been discussing the oddity of riding in the car. Sometimes it is fun to give the keys to someone else and sit in the passengers seat. With Jill's Dad being sick and Jill taking pain medication Barbara and I have been doing all of the driving. It is awful to always sit on the left side of the car. I find myself daydreaming as I drive and I need to remind myself to pay attention. Do you always drive? What percent of males do all of the driving in their families? These are interesting questions. Louie from work always drives. He cannot sit in the passengers seat. I asked him once if his wife has ever driven. Once she did and it scared him to death. He has driven ever since. Jill does not like it when she drives, she says I make her nervous. Most of the time I see the man driving. Gordy, my neighbor and coworker, never drives his wife's car. In fact one night I asked him for a ride to a viewing and his wife drove us. Interesting..... does driving give us more power or make us better? I do not know. I do not believe the women drivers are necessarily worse drivers, they just drive more often. Driving more often will always lead to more accidents.
Louie had a VW bug painted bright green with yellow stripes. It was a fun car. One day he wanted to go to lunch and it had been snowing. I told him I was not going to push his car. Well he tried to make a right turn through a snow bank and got stuck. I turned to him and said I am not pushing. He got out and I drove from the passengers seat. I think driving the car is sort of a push for power. Men need to feel that power. We are weak and looking to impress our mates or lure in our mates. Our driving prowess marks us for the powerful men we are.
Next time you drive look around, there are interesting things to see. 5400 west by our church there are 3 hawks living in the trees. I have you noticed the 2 big st Bernard dogs on the shortcut from 5400 to 5600 west. Have you noticed the pheasants that live in the tomato patch off 4100 south? Jill and I did a paper route a couple of years ago and there was a neighborhood that had a for sale sign that traveled. Every morning it was in front of someone Else's house. It is fun to notice odd things that go on. This is my word of advice, drive all you want, but take the time to look around. This world is a fun place.

Chris is signed up for girls gym. You go girl!

Jill's long day @ LD

I am having a hard time sleeping tonight. Jill had her implant done so every time I roll over I hear her groan a bit. The life of a devoted husband, right? Ha, Ha, I get lots of things on my mind sometimes and I have a hard time getting them to slow down so I can relax and go to sleep. Jill came through the surgery very well. It took lots longer than I expected. We go to the hospital around 1 and they told us they were running behind. The nurse thought she would be taken in around 3:30. They even gave me a lunch coupon so I could get something to eat. I love the cafeteria food in the hospitals. Jill ended up going to surgery at 5 and it took a little over 2 hours. Jill always has a hard time coming out of the anesthesia so we left the hospital around 11 and picked up the kids. It was a long day. Jill is doing well.

They will program the implant in a couple of weeks and then she will be home free, we hope.

I hate the hospital, My feet always hurt and we figured out why sometime ago. I think I stress out and tighten the muscles in my feet. I have never stayed in a hospital, except for my birth. In fact the only type of "surgery" I have ever had is stitches and a colonoscopy. Jill on the other hand has got the procedures down pat. When the nurse asks for her history she always asks if they want the condensed version, or the cliff notes. I sure hope this procedure helps and gets us back to normal life. It is not a good thing when the nurses recognize us.